kacie pics.

Sweet Pea

Hi Everyone,

Thank you for all the beautiful pictures and memories of Kacie. Please do something
fun to remember her by today. She was always laughing and joking around, and she would have wanted that. We planted a yellow daffodil in her honor and will do some other things today that she liked. I will also try to post some random pictures today and throughout the week.

Some of my favorite blogs throughout the year were especially of the trips to Ocean City that you did in her honor, the Volkswagen Thing that jeff posted since she always talked about buying one, the picture of Kacie in her purple hoodie when she first moved to Hilton Head, all the dreams, Bingo night, the daffodils, and I could go on and on. You guys are something special.



Love ya,

Nancy.

Dear Kacie-

I love you

images i haven't posted before... i think?

3/11/09

kacie- we all love you and miss you so much. we are thinking about you. xoxo

i have a full day planned in kacie's honor. i will take some pictures and post them later tonight. hope everyone does something special today.

love, natalie

I took the day off today to remember Kacie today and to reflect on the last year we have had. I really don't know what I could have done if it weren't for this blog. It is nice to read old memories and re-comment on them as if I never read them before.

I really have a hard time dealing with the loss of Kacie. It is kind of like I always have a chip on my shoulder whenever I am talking to people. I work in the military where egotistical maniacs are the norm. It is so funny to see people try to figure me out and wonder why I am not outgoing like them. The truth is, I am thinking, "do these people know what I have been through in my life or in the last year?" This doesn't really apply to specific instances or people but is a general feeling that I have had since Kacie passed away. I don't know if this is a healthy way of thinking but something that goes through my head almost constantly.

I have seen amazing things that make up for a lot of the sad parts of my life but did this really have to happen? I just wish I could have seen her sooner than summer of 07 before I left. She even begged me to visit her in Baltimore right before I left in September 07 but I refused.

Kacie, you deserved a better chance at life. I love you and I'll always remember you.

Love, Jeff

Baby Gus!

http://raincitystory.com/flash/screenclean.swf

A friend at work just sent me that link, and after I clicked it, the first thing I thought of was how much I wanted to send it to Kacie.

"the circles"

i was talking with my brother, ricky, today about kacie. ricky came to see kacie when she was in the hospital. Ricky and Kacie always got along really well and would tell jokes with each other for hours. They are probably the two favorite people in my life and I was so happy that I could hang out with both of them at the same time and have a blast.

In any case I was telling Ricky about River Road he got onto the blog and i showed him the river road pics. He then asked me what the story was about the circle. I told him how there was the circle in the water and then the one through the clouds with jeff. he thought that was really amazing.

then later on i was looking at one of the cards we made for kacies memorial service. it has the poem "Love" typed on the back.

I found it really interesting... and thought of the poem a little bit differently.

Love, perhaps more science than romance.

Invisible yet quantifiable matter > the clouds jeff saw

it might evaporate and float away > the clouds again and/or the water in the river

fall elsewhere,

freeze, boil; > the river was frozen around the circle that day at river rd

it could circulate in the blood,

bitter as an infection,

benevolent as a nutrient.

Clear, tangible.

It died. It was born.

Another Sad One

I had this dream several nights ago.

Nancy and I were living in my mother's house on Chanceford Rd. Nancy told me that Kacie had been in a car accident and went to the hospital to bring her home. After a while, I started to worry and started to search for her and Kacie. They never returned to the house and I went throughout the neighborhood asking people if they had seen or heard anything but no one could tell me anything.

idea

I just thought of another idea that you all might be interested in. On the 11th, try and re-read all of the blogs we have written within the last year and re-comment on your fav's. I started to read a couple blog entries that were written right after Natalie started all this and they already started to make me smile. I would like to save the rest for the 11th.

struggling...

Hi Everyone,

how are you all doing? i hope well. I have worked over 70 hours this week finishing up painting the prince of saudi arabia's house. To put it lightly, I am exhausted... both mentally and physically. 

I came on to the blog tonight and I just lost it emotionally. I have felt more disconnected with things lately and while Kacie crosses my mind several times a day or more.... I also still have a numbness to it. Maybe it is acceptance... I am not sure. But then there are the times when it all hits me hard and I can't even believe it has almost been a year.... and that shes gone. I get so scared sometimes... scared about moving on and that I will forget her... when I know I can't possibly ever forget Kacie. It's just so hard not being able to share things with her anymore. It is so hard to not be able to make new memories. 

i am definetly down for going to OC the weekend after March 11th. Do you guys want to stay a night? Or just go for a day?

-Natalie

1 year anniversary approaching...

I wish that we could all come together and do something special for Kacie this March.... but we are too spread out. Maybe we could all do something together somehow... like all planting something that day... anyone else got any other ideas? Amanda and I had been talking about getting together to do something either on River road (she has not been there yet) or going to Ocean City. Everyone else is of course welcome to come. Hopefully, the weather will be nice and maybe we could go to the jetty. Does anyone else have any ideas?

March 11th falls on a Wednesday. We could go to OC the weekend before or after.... since it might be hard to get off work? let me know what you all think. If we go to Ocean City we could get on the live cam with Gary and Nancy like we did last time.

Miss you Kacie!

Kacie Speaks From The Past

This evening I was playing with my cell phone and got into my text message inbox. The following message from Kacie popped up.

Ew this is so sick. i cant eat here. barf

It was sent on 9/08/07 at 4:27 pm.

"Hopper"

I loved how she called rabbits "hoppers." There was a rabbit outside in the snow when I woke up this morning and made me think of that. Didn't she have rabbits growing up? I think I remember her telling me about one named thumper.

Brown Eyes Dream

I had this dream early this morning.

Nancy and I had two young daughters and we were taking a walk with them on a beautiful sunny day. They appeared to be about two and maybe ten. I was looking at them and suddenly realized that they looked exactly as Kacie did at their ages. I then remarked that Kacie had blue eyes and the youngest one corrected me and said that they were brown. Nancy then said "don't you remember how she looked in the hospital? "

ocean city dream

i had a dream last night that i was visiting ocean city. I was at a resturaunt. i was sitting at a table with 3 other people. i dont know who they were. at a table across from me was my boss from work and her family. my boss' family owned the resturaunt. i remember looking out the window and being able to see the ocean. then i ordered an italian soda. which i have never had in real life but kacie always told me she really liked them. 

02/11/09

We miss you sweetheart.

Love always,
Mom and Dad

deep sea creature dreams...

In the past week I have had two separate dreams involving sharks and dolphins. The first dream I had was me "playing" with a shark. Yes, thats right, "playing" with a shark. ... like it was a dog. I was in a tank playing fetch with a shark and then play swimming and it would follow me. I remember seeing the mouth and teeth of the shark vividly.... and it was almost as if the shark was smiling.... it was quite strange. I have been working at this house on Gibson Island painting for the last month or so and the house is right on the bay with amazing views. I had a dream the other night that I was working at this house and the water came right up to the windows. I looked out the window and there were 4 dolphins swimming in the water. I was so tickled. I opened the window and started calling to them making high pitch noises like they do. The dolphins heard me. They pulled there heads out of the water and started calling back to me. We continued to do this for a while. 

I am not sure what the meaning is behind these dreams? Kacie did love the sea... but not sharks.... and she never really mentioned anything about dolphins. Maybe I was supposed to be a marine biologist? 

Chapter 6

Hi, this is Gary.

This is an interesting chapter because we see the two opposing sides clearly defined. The socialists are clearly in the majority as they are now in our country. Henry, Dagny, and Frisco appear to be somewhat adversarial but that will change.

Are people like the three mentioned above really a threat to the welfare of society? Or is socialism a greater threat?

John Galt is identified in this chapter.

Read on. The pace quickens.

Return of the Book Club

Kacie's Book Club is back. Please visit the site for exciting and brilliant summations of each chapter on a weekly basis.